So I moved

This morning has been very uncomfortable for me. I don't know why. May be the fact that I am overwhelmed once again by everything I have to do or the fact that my husband did not go to work today and blamed me. I hate that! I am not responsible for a grown man getting up and going to work as an engineer. He has missed several days this year. I am worried he may lose his job. I don't work so this is a huge stress for me. He had almost a breakdown a few weeks ago and now I feel like I have to "fix" him, even though the better part of me knows that I am not responsible for this. But that is the "fixer" in me. Fix everyone but myself. So I am sitting here watching "peep" with my son while my husband does what he always does at home, sits on the computer. Ugh. I hope he does not lose his job. That would REALLY be a bad thing for my family.

I hate mornings

I don't know why I have such a hard time with mornings. I can get up ok because of my son, but it takes me an hour or so to get moving and some days I hardly move at all. So I thought I might do some blogging in the morning. I cannot find my daily reflection book. I hate that I lose things so much. Just like my house, my brain is so disorganized. My anxiety is showing its ugly head this morning. The doctor's are slowly pulling me off my anxiety medication so maybe that is it. I will have to buy another daily reflection book tonight at my meeting. My new sponsor and I are going out for coffee afterwards to get to know each other. Today I will start to work on the workbook on here after I clean the kitchen. ugh. The kitchen. Right now I cannot move. I wish I had an opportunity to really wake up and read my morning meditation before anyone gets up. Just another thing to add to my list of "should do's" ugh - morning.