Cooties

It was interesting this morning watching the rain turn slowly into sleet and then to snow. It is amazing to me how God has created each and every thing and if I take the time, and slow down, I can notice the slightest change.

I remember when I first got sober how vibrant and extreme everything around me seemed. It was like my senses were on hyper mode for about 3 months. The colors seemed brighter, the noises louder, smells and tastes were all more potent. At that time, most of it irritated me. It was like all of the sudden I had the "Oh Shit factor".

My sponsor told me that she once heard what SOBER really means - "Son of a Bitch, everything is REAL". That is exactly how you feel. FEELING was uncomfortable. Sometimes it still is, but now it isn't all the time. I can actually enjoy most of the pleasant feelings and actually enjoy noticing things around me such as this morning with the snow.

Now going out and driving in it is a different story. I had to go to the immediate care with my son so we could get checked out and get notes to go back to work/preschool on Monday. I am looking forward to the routine again. Being out a week makes me feel lazy. I was so sick this week. Turns out I have strep throat, an ear and bladder infection. No wonder I have been feeling the "ick" as I have said in previous posts.

I had a hard time waking up this morning. With my husband here on the weekend I don't feel like I have to keep one eye open all the time if I need to doze on the couch and I did sleep in quite a bit on the couch.

Nothing much got done today regarding my unmanagables, but by the Grace of God I did not drink today, nor did I have the desire. Hopefully with the antibiotics in my system, the ick will be gone mostly tomorrow and I can work on cleaning and organizing my house. This task is high on my unmanagables - this is a totally long post in itself which I will go into later.